Posted by Vincent_QC on December 8, 2008, at 12:42:45
Let me clear this time...my main problem is general anxiety and social phobia.
My new psychiatrist put me on Parnate 3 weeks ago. I only do 4 days on it at 10-20mg...because it was too much stimulant for me, I Was not able to handle the situation. I see him the week after and he put me back in Nardil but only 15mg/day week 1 and 30mg/day week 2...I see him again tomorrow...
Since i'm addict to all the benzodiazepines drugs, and my new psychiatrist wanted me to take more benzo to encounter the exciting side-effect of Parnate, I ask him to put me back on Nardil insistead to increase my Valiums intake and continue with the Parnate...
To finish my long story...I'm on week 2 of Nardil...30 mg and I just stop yesterday, after I had a CAR ACCIDENT!!!
I meet my family doctor last week, it was the one who precribe to me the Nardil back in 2007...he look in my folder and see that after 3 months I was saying back then that I was feeling worse than before I start the Nardil...So I ask myself, why another try on Nardil??? I already do 3 months at 90mg without any improve...so I think I made a mistake...
The CAR ACCIDENT happen because I ask my family doctor to prescribe something for the insomnia and a low dose of Ativan, because my Valiums pills was not strong enought to encounter the dopamine and NE effects I feel with the Nardil (Strange cause back in 2007 I didn't notice this side-effects or this negative energy feeling...). At fisrt I didn't wanted to increase my Valiums intake or having a more potent benzo, since last summer I ended up at the hospital for an abuse of Xanax...and it take a long 3 months to recover from the withdraw on the Xanax...but well I was feeling extremely overstress, especially since the Parnate try... So he give to me a prescription of Seroquel XR, the extend release, 50mg/6hours before bed time and 8mg/day of ativan, if I feel the need to take it...
I start the Seroquel-XR 5 days ago...and yes I sleep more well and I stop having this prematures wake up at 2 or 3 AM...I was able to sleep normal night of 7 hours...But I also notice that I was VERY CONFUSED all day long after...like a real ZOMBIE, I try to take only 25 mg for 2 nights, and I feel the same bad feeling all day long. It's like I lost the contact with the reality...I never felt like this before except when I do panic attacks...you know, the fear to loose the control and to feel out of your body...It's how I feel the day after I take a small dose of Seroquel...I hate it!!! And I have a lot of nauseas...
So the CAR ACCIDENT I had last evening was caused by a really high drop of my cognitives abilities. I was trying to put a CD and adjust the volume level at the same time and I stop looking at the road...When I look at the road again, 10 seconds later, I see that I will miss the exit I had to take...I slow down on the speed and in the "curve" of the exit I lost the control of the car, I was not able to put the break and I was soo much excited that I lost all the control over my body...I was not able to react... Thanks god, I was alone, no car in front of me or behind...and I had no injury...but the car had several dommages (I know that's just a material thing but that was not MY car...).
So today i'm really confuse...because it was the NEW car of my mom...She don't have a lot of money and me either, she wanted to help me, I can take her car when she don't need it, she's nice to do this...and I always told her that I will take of her new car when I borrow it...you understand... So after the car accident, I take my cellphone and call her...She was not happy (but she said that it was not my fault and stop feeling guilty because of the car, it's just a plastic and iron thing)...my dad was not happy because I have no insurrance for the car and he will have to pay for the repair of the car...
So today I feel very guilty, I already feel like this often...but last night and today it's really hard to handle...I'm confuse cause I don't know what to think of the situation...What is the problem ???
Is it me? Is it the Nardil ? Is it the Seroquel-XR? Is it the Ativan? Is it a blend of all of this put together???
What can I do? I have social phobia since i'm 19yo, now i'm 32 yo... I never find anything to help me with my anxiety and my social phobia...Trust me, I do a lot of efforts and I try a lot of things, CTB, pills, therapies...name it...I try everything...
Since I stop the Nardil last Saturday night...and I see my new psychiatrist tomorrow morning (9 december), what I can ask to him and what I say to him???
Did I try again the Parnate and taking more Valiums or Ativan pills to entercount the stimulant profile of this drug? Did I ask to try the Zeldox (Geodon in the USA)...it's seem to have a good reputation for the anxiety problem and social phobia...
I'm very confuse... I have to admit that I take an high dose of Ativan mixed with Valiums last night because I was not able to sleep... so today i'm really slow... and I feel guilty, for the car and for my intake of benzos pills...
Can someone help me and put me in the good way please?... Parnate, Geodon, Lamictal???
The medecine I never try are : Lamictal, Lithium, TCA's except the infamous impramine and elavil (that's not good for social phobia anyway), Geodon (Zeldox in Canada), cymbalta (less potent than effexor-xr and not very helpfull for social phobia)...I never tolerate Effexor, so that one seem to be the same...more NE effet, less SE... And the last one I never try is Luvox, the only one SSRI I never take...ho and the Manerix cause it's not worth the try...
So you can see, the choice is limited...I try everything else...All the antidepressants, anticonvulsives (Lyrica, gabapentin, neurontin), antipsychotic (Zyprexa, Risperdal, Seroquel...), some mood stabiliser...all the benzo drugs avaible in Canada...Nardil, Parnate...
Any help will be appreciate!!!
Thanks !
Vincent
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