Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 29, 2008, at 23:52:46
In reply to Re: Having *Serious* problems in morning » rjlockhart04-08, posted by azalea on October 29, 2008, at 23:12:49
Each day, i'm prescibed to take 3 15mg spansules.
2 in morning, 1 in afternoon. Spansules are kinda old, from what i know. If i take 1 15mg, the first dose is 7.5 because it releases "half" of 15mg. And then when it wears off, it's released again at 7.5mg (but its plasma lasts a bit longer) That's how a Spansule works.
So what i mean by the how i take it 2 in the morning so that 2 15 mg, which is 30mg. So half of 30 is 15 and that's the dose is delivered. At 12pm the other 15mg is released. And i take 1 spansule at 12 or afternoon. So add 7.5 to 15 you get 22.5mg till 3pm. Then at 3pm the "morning" Spanules wear off, and then at 3 the 2nd delivery of the afternoon dose is delivered, 7.5mg, lasts till usally 6pm.
My doctor, with dexedrine, is really "back-off" about it. But, see, this not the correct dose. I told him that in the session, and my therpist is belives more spirituality and doesnt believe in medication, and he's getting tired of me, i mean, the man doesnt listen to whats in head...he just talks, about guidelines of life, well i have trouble with it, and i need to talk about it. He's like, "enough!" we do hypnosis, or medication. I mean, man when i close my eyes, when he tell me to medicate, "i peek open my eyes and see him typing emails". I caught a rat....but rats are everywhere.
So, even thought Dexedrine is at 45mg, it spread out in 15mg(7-12)-22.5mg(noon)-7.5mg(3-6). My therpist, i wrote him a letter stating what "disociation episodes, i have in the car when i'm lost running documents" I wrote him 2 pages, and also wanted to tell him that, the dexedrine dosage is not correct, or it's not benefiting. I talked with him, he thinks i have other "alters" in my head, which is true...because they where created because of trama of not knowing how to cope with life, so when i'm about to breakdown, they switch and take over the task i'm doing. It's not "switching" it's more, the mind, changes into a diffrent mode where it makes itself forget, and restart, before a burn-down.
So, one problem, Psychiatrist is nuts, gave me 140mg of Vyvanse, then wont even touch, or talk about dexedrine. 2nd Therpist thinks i need to be "sent" off to a place, where emotional trama is needed. Excuse me, I'm not putting up with that b*llsh*t, if that man has been qualified since 1960, and doenst understand a "warped" mind, he just "well, dont know what to do...go to psych help" My alter ego's are like "shut up!" when he's rambling, about "your always breathing hard! stop it!" it's almost Tiffany, a dominant mother that replaced my own mother, got sick and tired of this wasting money on some burned out therpist.
Sorry.....i mean, the idiots in my own "familia" dont understand, i do have alter ego's. Because why? its called having Asperger's and not knowing it, i mess up constantly, harrassed, put down, but you know, if they dont understand it....that's there own ignorance. Who cares...family is not psychiatric care, but my family goes behind my back and talks about me, and does "secret" "deciet", when there christain's. Let me say...even pastors talk sh*t behind people's backs. And this one i belong to, really is dyphuntional, my brother is proably the only rational one that understands, because we grew up together.
Ending it at that....
So, if they plan anything, i'll come here, and know what exactly what to do.
rj
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