Posted by ksyzysk on October 11, 2008, at 22:58:08
Hi,
INTRODUCTION
I have been a lurker on this site for about a year now and first want to thank you all for the valuable information I have received (especially regarding Nardil which I am now on).BACKGROUND
My primary diagnoses are social anxiety disorder and body dismorphic disorder (BDD) with comorbid TR-depression. Almost three years ago now the pressures of life became to demanding and cronic full-blown anxiety has made my life a living hell. The one thing that has caused most suffering are just about "nightly" nightmares which give me no peace of mind and completely disrupt my days. In this cronic nightmare disorder the nightmares are very different in character from the "normal" nightmares I had back when I was relatively healthy up until the age of 27. The nightmares are very intense (anxiety) and rub of in a very physical way (ears ring, head spings + more). Contentwise, they often repeat a currently traumatic theme (when present) or just random garbage. I have tried a plethora of drugs and I have had partial/full relief with some until tolerance sets in (poop-out). For example, Nardil, suppressing just about all REM sleep initially was very effect at first. Now, 5 months later REM sleep as reappeared and I am starting to feel REALLY desperate! In my young adult years I consumed "moderate" amounts of illegal drugs in a span of almost ten years to provide relief from the SAD induced loneliness. I am now so extremely frightened that I have somehow managed to damage my brain irreversibly :( ! I am so SCARED!!!QUESTION
I have had a really hard time finding people on web forums relating similar experiences which only makes me even more afraid. If anyone has/has had anything even remotely similar, please do tell?
poster:ksyzysk
thread:857011
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