Posted by anthonyg23 on October 3, 2008, at 16:01:26
Hi everybody....
I really need some help pinpointing exactly what's wrong with me. Here's the deal: I've been able to put a band-aid on my depression by using Effexor and Lamictal together. It works okay, not as good as Serzone did for me, but it works.
My biggest problem that affects my life tremendously is as follows:
- I rarely arrive on time
- I'm scatter brained
- I hardly ever get things done on deadlines
- I begin projects and never finish them
- I have an extremely hard time staying motivated, I begin to see all the negatives and roadblocks and I'd rather not start the project then face such issues.
- I can become inspired for a short time only to have it burn out after a little bit
- I say I'm going to do things and get worried about the outcome so I don't follow through.
- If there's something I feel is going to be a small confrontation with others I put it off until it becomes worse.
- The first response in my head whenever I have a task to complete is inherently "it's too hard" or "It's not worth it"... etc etc.I've been told it's anxiety, I've been told it's ADD. All I know is that it's ruining my life. I've got just as much potential as anyone but I always seem to be operating at 50% or in other words "Half-Assing" it. It's like I can't help it, I'm not lazy, I just can't seem to beat this huge issue. Basically with any situation that presents itself to me my first reaction (almost unconciously) is to think of the negatives, roadblocks, etc.)
At my job for instance, I have to follow-up with customers on a weekly basis... And, if they call with questions or concerns regarding their purchase I usually send them to voicemail and procrastinate the call-back because I don't want to deal with the confrontation. It ultimately has resulted in complaints to my manager about me not calling people back!
I hope you guys can lend me some insight.
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thread:855560
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