Posted by Quintal on August 31, 2008, at 12:53:53
In reply to valuable blood tests for psych/neuro isues, posted by iforgotmypassword on August 29, 2008, at 11:37:54
> again i am just a mess, my symptoms don't even end here:
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> i suffer from severe amotivation, executive block, loss of natural feeling and drive, cognition and fluency warping, cannot work or take care of myself without regular intervention from my father, hoarding, social phobia and general public phobia, extrapyramidal symptoms ranging from stiff and filled with cement to akathitic and both at the same time, loss of co-ordination and accumulating minor injuries particularly on hands despite doing so little, off and on periodic facial movements that sometimes cluster in attacks, pacing, wierd aggrevating electrical field sensations in my skin focusing on arms and face not just legs, pain due to stiffness especially upper back, and the stiffness and facial tension can make me look absolutely ridiculous going outside, i keep posting my symptoms hoping they are a red flag to someone...I've been wondering for a while if I should give some input here. I'm not sure how it will be received, but what you're saying sets off a few bells over something that came up in my own therapy over identity. T says I tend to define myself and my problems as a list of symptoms rather than a person. What makes me wonder is that I remember something I think you posted a while ago about some treatent you were having to do with gender identity and I wonder if this could be linked with the symptoms you're having? That might sound strange at first glance, but the parts about social phobia, general public phobia and poor motivation sound familiar. Physical stiffness can be a manifestation of anxiety, and also if you have gender issues, about how you walk and how you are presenting yourself to the world. It's an instictive reaction to seize up in order not reveal anything about yourself, and over a long time this can become so habitual and unconscious that we don't feel in control of it any more. Were you teased or made to feel self conscious about the way you moved when you were younger?
Do you have other people you feel you can confide in and 'be yourself' around apart from immediate family, and are you attending a clinic where you can talk to other people who are having the same treatment?
I do have symptoms that are somewhat similar to yours. I have thought I had Parkinsons's disease or some other movement disorder on occasions. A blood test from your doctor could rule out any serious physical problems, so you might want to ask about that if the service is avaiable. It's also good to have someone to talk to who understands what you're going through.
Q
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