Posted by 10derHeart on August 2, 2008, at 23:35:06
In reply to Issues i can't tell my psychiatrist, posted by rjlockhart '05 on August 2, 2008, at 21:07:13
>I wont ever tell my psychiatrist this... only like a confidencial therpist.
Anything you tell your pdoc would be completely confidential, (unless you've signed a release for him to talk to anyone else) so I'm not sure what you meant here..?
Are you seeing a pdoc for meds, and also someone else for talk therapy? Or does your pdoc do both?
Could you print this post and just hand it to him, or maybe get yourself to tell him you're afraid to tell him certain things? Even saying that, I've found, can start some good therapy sessions.
I know it's really, really hard when you don't feel confident people will understand what you mean when you talk. I really do. I have ADD, and though it's under good control through meds and therapy, it will *always* be part of who I am, and I still get frustrated with all kinds of communications. But one thing I do is keep trying, especially to think of some other way to get the message out. It's not easy. I feel for you.
I did want to say once more, I hope you really, really seriously consider letting your therapist/pdoc see this post. In my opinion, any therapist would really *want* to know that you know you dissociate, that you feel you have "other people in your da*n head," and things about a "host takes control over a person." Not to make a new diagnosis or a different one - that's not at all what I'm thinking - (although that's always a possibility, especially if you're seeing a new pdoc) - a label is only a label after all. It is not you.
But the purpose would be so he can "hear" what it's like to be *you* on the inside. I don't mean to pressure you or argue with you or anything (I think you know me from the past here enough to know I care and I wouldn't do that) but I sincerely believe you *can* put it into words because you just did - at least a little of it - here on Babble. Sometimes, if I couldn't say a thing, I could write it, you know?
Hope this made a little sense. People care about you here and want you to feel better and be able to enjoy your life. You take care and keep posting :-)
-- 10der
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