Posted by Sky Brite Line on July 25, 2008, at 0:55:41
My current doctor is going to pull me down off Xanax, i can't argue with him in the session. He told me "follow my honor code". Go down to 5mg daily. I ain't no victim, but, jesus! one thing to the next im hit around. My mind is bruised.
, there is so much that is happening right now, self-induced trama, severe inability to adapt to an enviorment. I got dianosed with some called Asperger's Syndrome a while ago, and, now it explains everything! the inablity to relate socially.....its all coming to me.
Lately what.....i can't say it because there has been so much intense pain that happened in a period of months, i've had memory loss, speech, I know fragments.....but i just lost almost my memory banks. During this time, or a paticular time, i would wake up and completely have memory loss of alot of things.
Psychobabble........this is not for attention. I've had...... many non-told breakdown's, recently. I never have put myself through this before, there was no one there. Its choices, with out anyone to guide you. Make a bad choice, it could destroy everything. i've litterly spilt. I always seemed happy, and peaceful for a good while. The realization that i can't handle certain situations, when no one is there.
its all a part of back-up system when a mental function fails. Another thing rebooted...... spit off and took on actually control when i lost it. I dont have D.I.D, but dont understand why did all this happen, and why didnt i stand up and do something about it? why is life this cruel? and the anger and confusion is still coming. Tell me, please! why?
poster:Sky Brite Line
thread:841923
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