Posted by SLS on June 27, 2008, at 10:40:57
In reply to 'Awakenings' on atypicals, posted by med_empowered on June 26, 2008, at 19:05:34
> since I've started my new combo, I've had a sort of "awakening." Whats great is that I see the possibilities in my life; what sucks is that I'm suddenly more in touch with my emotions and I feel shame over all the crazy things I did while I was...ummm...crazy.
EXACTLY! This is what professional health-care workers have observed consistently when a patient finally "awakens" from a chronic schizoid or psychotic state.
First of all, congratulations on the new-found freedom that you made happen for yourself. You are making different choices now than you had in the past. APs are not the enemy. Nor are they without side effects and risks. I was adamant about not taking one when my doctor first suggested it.
> Has this happened to anyone else?Yup. Me. I suffered several psychotic manias as the result of inappropriate administration of psychotropics. Once I emerged from this altered state, I felt profoundly embarrassed by the things I did while severely manic and psychotic.
With depression, there is still some sense of control of your behaviors. With psychosis, there is no such control. Being out of control can elicit feelings of impotency.
You may look back over your shoulder from time to time at the embarrassing "caziness" and the lost years. However, keep the orientation of your body forward and continue to take positive steps. I have forgiven myself for my behaviors while manic. It is freeing.
Have FUN! Whenever you can. It will help offset the hard work you have ahead of you.
- Scott
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