Posted by dayandnight on June 24, 2008, at 21:04:43
Seroquel 50mg at night, Lexapro 20mg daily. Since starting Seroquel I am very calm, more than I have ever been. Welcome at first now not sure about this change in me. Things that used to interest me are now bland. I dont get excited about anything and am happy to be complacent, compliant and docile. I am not sure about all of this and I find myself looking forward to each night as I can sense the conflict rising inside me, should I continue the medicine. So it is that I take my evening dose and within a hour or so my conflicting thoughts that have started to rise are gone and I am happy to just be in the space that I am in again. I started to write this about six times before I could find the desire to finish it. I keep remembering the movie a long time ago Stepford Wives I think I am turning into the Stepford Husband as I am willing now to go along with almost if not all of my wifes suggestions, not a bad thing I guess. I like the calming effect but worry that it will change me permanently as it seems to take longer to come back than it did a month ago. I think I need a edge in some areas of life and it seems that I am turning into this zombie. Has anybody else here had the same internal battle? How did you cope, surrender of fight?
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