Posted by yxibow on June 22, 2008, at 0:40:16
In reply to Re: If you could eliminate 3 symptoms, posted by chiron on June 21, 2008, at 22:53:00
Mine, as someone said is a multifaceted syndrome for which there is no single target.
So its hard for me to answer this question, and actually concentrating on symptoms can make them worse. At least for me anyhow. I have to look future forward.
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But if I were to say anything:1. As much as possible of my visual (possibly somatiform, possibly OCD, its not a single target) that really interferes the most with life and gaining back bits and pieces of short term memory issues.
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2. My polemic view of life, again possibly from OCD and other anxiety spectrums, into the distant future beyond my parents who I am very close to.
The fear of living, basically. That's a hard concept to visualise, but it comes from feeling trapped in a very strange place and a disorder yet to be overcome to the best of my abilities, that I never imagined I would have with multiple catch-22s.
======================3. A lack of a spark of true fascination (which may certainly come from depression and psychodynamic reasons) and interest in doing things that are beyond my hobbies, not which don't play a role in soothing my life.......
....but a focus, that will ultimately provide me with an income and..... HOPE. Hope is not something you can buy, or be given, it comes from within, and it is built like a muscle with things that produce self-confidence.
And I'm working on things towards that goal through therapy and there are little sparks which I may not realize, and I don't always see myself from the view of the multiple caregivers who have much trust in my future -- but who can see outside themselves -- that, is metaphysical in a way.=========================
So these may not seem like true symptoms (but they are very real as Somatiform spectrum conditions are) -- they can seem like wishes and desires.
But they come from symtoms, as noted not for me not to dwell on what has happened to me much, except to acknowledge reality (which is very metaphysical -- someone's reality is not necessarily THE REALITY).
...Something I sometimes call The Here and Now. Not religiously, just acknowledging that I am the same capable individual inside all these layers, living with what I have in the present, and the future is something nobody can predict:=============================
And yes, I am very sane, intelligent (no comparisons meant to anybody else -- we had a thread on that I believe), perhaps almost so self-aware of things that as noted I am way too hard on myself.
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So I will end what is a long answer to a simple question:======================
"Look to this day! For it is life, the very life of life. For yesterday is but a dream And tomorrow is only a vision But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness And tomorrow a vision of hope. Look well, therefore, to this day! Such is the salutation of the dawn."- Kalidasa (ancient sanskrit, unknown vintage.)
This has been adopted over time.
-- tidings
-- Jay
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