Posted by Sky Brite Line on May 14, 2008, at 23:41:04
Im very not happy with my life, i dont hate it, but i'm asking god at this point to get me to doctor that will medicate me.
Ill go on Haldol, anything, i really perfer something that would cause peace. My mind is not peaceful at all. But then i have no life when im on any antipsychotic, im on abilify, i took it again because i really felt unstable, and it numbed my thoughts, not really the way i feel.
Medication is not really something to numb the way we feel, its just the past and present that bother me. And im not anyother people, trying to "speak" out for other because people dont feel the anxiety and choas i feel every day. I feel dread everyday, but i cover it up, this is where it comes out. The worst thing, ever in my fear is coming home and thinking how bad my life is, which is already transperant because of the constant choas my mind will take through the whole day.
This isnt a place to relieve pain, but its a good vention. Just pray i'll get to a good doctor.
Sky Line
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thread:829164
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