Posted by ncrainbow on May 2, 2008, at 12:47:08
Okay...so I am definitely getting more than a little manic...but I am feeling good and not doing anything harmful, inappropriate, or self-destructive.
For example, my pressured speech is pretty bad right now...it is more pressured and more rapid.
I also went looking for and bought an outfit for a date night with my spouse of 10 years that is more than a little bit sexier than I would normally wear. Plus it is at a time when money is a little bit tight. Now it wasn't super expensive but it probably wasn't prudent either.
I have been pretty irritable with my family but nothing awful, just a switch from my normally cheery persona. I am having trouble getting started on a work project although once I am there, I am hyper focused.
And I am definitely feeling that racy speedy manic feeling...which is kind of nice since I struggle from a lot of fatigue and daytime sleepiness.
The part that concerns me is I am cycling between this and being very lethargic. It is like as soon as that 2mg of klonopin wears off around 10:00 in the morning, I am go go go until I take it again at 10:00 at night.
And as experienced folks, you may also notice that my email is filled with a lot of rationalizations and qualifiers. Again not my typical style.
I just bumped my wellbutrin up to 300 today and suspect the increased mania is due to that. My doc kept telling me that the Celexa he took me off of was causing the hypomania but it seems to me I am more manic since I went off of it.
My gut instinct says to watch for signs that the mania is over the line when and if I stop sleeping. Right now my sleep patter is very regular and I am getting 8-9 hours a night plus naps.
I have heard people say that the "activating" part of wellbutrin wears off and is definitely dose dependent. So maybe I will be a little less chipper in a week or two.
Any thoughts? I have only had this whole cyclothymia diagnosis for about 8 weeks so I can use all the guidance I can get. At 40, it is hard to start seeing things through a whole new lens.
NCRainbow
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