Posted by your#1fan on March 29, 2008, at 23:40:30
Im experence fear alot during the day.
1)I feel im being watched and judged by other
2)I cant interact very well with people, my social skills are horrible.
3)Rejection thats the because i have this disorder.It has plaged me so much. I think people are thinking bad about me, it hurts me, then i get angry, and then i learn (it was just the way i percieved it)
I want "normalness" not "loniness"
What its done is made me look like a bad person, becuase the truth, is im in a Adult body with about a 11 year old way of coping with things. This is why i feel i have to have parents. Im suppost to be in control of my life right now, im not.
Fear consumes me, Xanax has helped with fear, and anxiety reactions fine. But i need to know there is a cure for As. Syndrome so i can socialize normally and act normally, when im grown.
Depression hasnt much plaged me much with Prozac counteracting it. Prozac has done wonders.
The severe pain of knowing your autistic and feel stupid, slow, behind, and never knew you had it is overwhelming.
Good night, im just venting.........this is just like my online diariy.
Your#1fan
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