Posted by iforgotmypassword on March 29, 2008, at 16:37:42
physical stiffness, motion task and thought sticking, feeling as if must be parkinsonian nearly, but i am 23. long-time (several years) of history of permanent tardive EPS, avolition, amotivation, aimlessness indecision in every way possible, deadened feelings and panning from meaningless aimless overtalk to interrupted fluency (at one point of its worst my communication abilities had me diagnosed as psychotic) again, i just need answers. physical sticking and freezing, nerve hardening, mind completely useless, and no executive capacity.
trying strattera, second day, things seem different, as hopeful at first, at this point don't see the functional benefit coming yet if one does.
i want to be able to get hired where i am in a co-op through an employment programme. it is 95% this won't happen now, given that this is the last two "shifts" this week coming.
again i need answers, and when i go out i want people to stop looking at me the way they do. i need to be able to control my outward behaviour to people, expression, and feel what makes sense and is relevant, engage appropriately and congruently. i want to have clean clothes and teeth, kept hair, stop smelling intermittently, stop having to rub film off my lips, ability to address facial hair that goes against my gender identity.
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