Posted by undopaminergic on March 19, 2008, at 17:41:25
In reply to Re: What med should I ask my doctor for? » therock, posted by Sigismund on March 18, 2008, at 17:38:29
> It is in the nature of depersonalisation that there is a lot of rumination.
Really? When I'm particularly depersonalised, there's just pure apathy - a vacant, unfocussed stare at nothing in particular and thinking about nothing at all. Indeed, it's one of the few times there's nothing on my mind.
However, it may well be that I have a different idea of depersonalisation/derealisation, because the state of being disengaged, absent-minded, detached, and out of touch with reality and everything but abstract thought is the only state of existence I'm familiar with. This is in contrast to the temporary "attacks" or episodes of depersonalisation that most people seem to be referring to.
> Oddly enough, I think the initial (very initial!) effect of amphetamine is against depersonalisation.
My experience would seem to confirm that. The first time I took PEA, I was, perhaps for the first time in life (or at least over a decade), entirely present in - and focussed on - the external reality and the present moment rather on the internal thoughts and abstractions that usually preoccupy me. That reality was a most amazing and "unreal" experience to me, and I wondered if that's how "normal" people live their lives. Is it?
As for amphetamines - or stimulants in general, they seem to be highly neglected as treatment options for anxiety disorders, but it's my definite experience that methylphenidate does a lot more to relieve anxiety and instill confidence than sertraline or midazolam do.
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