Posted by AdamCanada on February 11, 2008, at 20:59:58
In reply to Re: So sick of my freaking ''life'' » AdamCanada, posted by Maxime on February 9, 2008, at 4:11:25
last winter was much better than this i know that for certian. i dunno maybe something about this winter is different. perhaps i feel worse every winter but this time has been strong instead of mild. I dont know.
I'm cutting my darn paxil dose and trying trivistal LA. The Triv seems to make me tired and sleepy. Ugh. yet prior to taking it today i felt a lot more social and actually talking to people and feeling some of my sex drive and motivation back. then 30 mins or an hour after trivistal LA I feel worse, tired, dull, head hurts, ugh whatever.
Maybe the Triv interacts badly with other meds I take who knows.... Paxil, Clonazepam and tiny doses of Gabapentin. But It may have been the Gaba that did it. Ugh I'll find out soon enough I guess. Not taking any Gaba today and tomorrow and see if any change.
Nardil... never tried and i been told i'd have to get off Paxil first before I try it.
So my goal for some time has been to get off paxil and try some other meds that may work better. For a long time I have felt paxil helped me but as time went on... perhaps it doesnt anymore. I felt so much better on 9.25mg paxil than 10mg paxil when i cut that dose several months ago. strange isn't it.... how later on I would spiral downwards and I just dont know why.
So here I am taking 8.5mg paxil for the past 2 days and today I felt better in the morning a bit. and the early afternoon. Ugh but it's never stable.
Also I dont see a therapist... I see a psychiatrist. Therapy cannot help me. My problem is not ''in my mind'' it is something i cannot control. if it wasn't for medication I would probably be dead 5 years ago. The pain was immense, tremendous, and complete inability to find the slightest joy or interest in anything. I was a zombie. then few meds helped throughout various trials like risperdal and paxil. but nothing helped ''enough'' to give me my life back.
At least not back then.
Regarding women... the good thing about that 3-4 month period was that at least I was able to be motivated and driven by something. Photography and women. It's better than having no interest in anything at all so that's why I mention it. I loved the huge sex drive boost I recieved.
but i am becoming more hopeful despite how horrendous I been feeling. I'm making some serious changes to my meds and for better or worse there will be change. That is certian.
> Hi Adam
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> Do you think you might suffer from S.A.D.? Are your moods better in the summer?
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> With the symptoms you list perhaps Nardil would be a good choice. Have you ever tried it?
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> First you need to focus on finding a med that helps. Second, you should see a therapist. He/she will be able to help you with your anxiety.
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> Women? Maybe you should focus on getting better and the rest will come sooner or later.
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> Maxime
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