Posted by jonhkimble on February 5, 2008, at 1:02:35
I have been on every antideppressant under the sun and of course Nardil is the last one I try (at a resonable dose this time.) My doc put me up to 90 mg in the first week! but is certainly part of why its working and thank god I didnt quit this time, because after 8 years from 15 till now, 23, have been nothing but black, wondering why I couldnt get a thing done in my life, social anxiety so bad Ive basically stayed alone all this time. Also terrible panic attacks, neurotic behaviour, and constant general anxiety. I waS hospitalized 8 times for near suicidal behaviour with no relief and trying cbt for social anxiety for 3 years numerous times in group or solo. It all did nothing. I was so hopeless.
So the first week I notice my anxiety is a bit better already. Im cautiously optomistic. This stays for another two weeks and Im OK, this is great. Nardil is working. Im sure this must be it cause no ad has ever helped right. Wrong!
Starting two weeks ago I hit about 3 weeks and wham! all of a sudden Im the happiest Ive been my whole life, my anixety is gone, and Im talking to people! Not just that but Im talking to everyone. I asked someone at the bus stop what they do out of the blue today and we must have talked for 30 mininutes! Just today I must have started over 20 conversations! Best of all, Im no longer afraid of girls! Im going out tomorow with the love of my life for the first time ever! I am seriously going to marry her this year! Ok, maybe Im getting a little hasty but Ive never believed even dreaming about where Im at was possible. I cant @#$!% believe this!
On a slightly, and I mean slightly, downer note, Im tired almost all the time. Not at all mentally, but I feel like I have to sleep all the time. So, does this go away with time? What can be done now? I really cant lower my dose because I have tried 60 mg a day with no effect. I mean Id gladly put up with this the rest of my life if it means having Nardil but you know. I tried Modafinil which made me totally psychotic and horribly paranoid by the fourth day or so. Coffeine makes me anxious. Dexedrin, well lets not even talk about that one. (yes I stupidly tried it.) So Any other thoughts? How long did it take to go away in others if it did.
Thanks a bunch.
Thomas, the newest member of the Nardil club! So very glad to be on board.
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