Posted by stargazer2 on January 20, 2008, at 21:29:24
In reply to Thank you for posting that » stargazer2, posted by Racer on January 19, 2008, at 20:13:12
You're welcome.
Two strange things about my weight gain. One was that I was aware of eating more, but not being aware of the effects that this could have, because my focus was only on feeling better. It was like the weight gain was happening to someone else.
The other was that I didn't even think to weigh myself until my clothes started getting tighter. I almost never weigh myself and I didn't think of doing that until it was obvious I had gained weight.
Another thought is that I am currently in menopause and some of my weight gain may be related to that more than anything else. I am realizing too that perhaps my recalcitrant depression over the last few years may also be hormonal in nature, so there are many factors that perhaps played a role in this effect.
My weight gain is not related to fluid buildup, there is no swelling or water retention.
I think I've lost about 10 out of the 20 I gained and I have been exercising more faithfully, but of course,not enough.
I'm still enjoy eating sweets, but not as voraciously as before, so perhaps the real intensity is in the beginning or during any adjustment phase of starting Nardil.
I leave my house with some regularity now, have none or little self consciousness most days and I am even looking for a job. That is real progress for me despite not having the physique I did a few months ago. That is less important to me than my functionality. Those with extreme depression will understand this way of thinking (well, again I generalize... perhaps not everyone) Levels of depression vary so greatly that no two people experience depression quite in the same way.
Stargazer
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