Posted by CareBear04 on January 16, 2008, at 23:01:42
I'm at a point where I feel dead emotionally except that my anxiety response is still intact, and the stress I feel just makes me feel more hopeless and wanting even more to escape. The past few days I haven't even been able to drag myself to classes, which is a new low. Before, I might have felt very depressed, but at least I was outwardly functioning pretty well. Since I'm not able to stay on top of what I need to, and since being conscious of this failure is making me stressed and more depressed, I'd really just like something to make me a zombie so that I just don't care. Any suggestions?
I think the surest bet is an antipsychotic, probably one of the old ones. My old psychiatrist once described them on a spectrum from low potency to high potency, with the high end encompassing the strong but less sedating drugs. At the time, he prescribed Trilafon, which he put somewhere in the middle, and at 8mg or even 4mg at night, I just slept through each day. I think it might have been nice. I tried Thorazine very briefly last year. I took it at night like I was supposed to and slept through most of the next afternoon, when I got up to go to the bathroom and must have blacked out because I woke up on the floor. Can anyone comment on the other antipsychotics like Stelazine or Mellaril?
I don't think an atypical would do the trick for me right now. Abilify and Geodon didn't seem to do anything for anxiety. Risperdal just made me dumb, although it did sort of also make me numb. Hmm... I take 100-150mg of Seroquel for sleep at night, and it does nothing for me during the days. As for Zyprexa, the best use I had for it was as a prn-- when I felt overwhelmed, I would take a pill and sleep away the bad feelings. When I wasn't asleep, though, it didn't blunt my feelings or eliminate my anxiety at all; it just made me sluggish.
Have worked up a high tolerance to benzos and sleep meds... well, to just about everything for some reason.
Any suggestions?
CB
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