Posted by Racer on January 12, 2008, at 21:39:42
In reply to Re: Meanwhile I am ready to die » yxibow, posted by Maxime on January 12, 2008, at 20:57:45
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>I don't think so. I think yxibow was trying to say that it doesn't do anyone any good to compare ourselves to others -- in this case, to people who can manage to work regular jobs with regular hours. If you don't suffer from a mood disorder, if you have no major physical problems, no chronic diseases, it's a whole lot easier to do that.
I don't get the sense you do much of that sort of comparison, though -- I think your concerns are about survival, and I understand that. The problem is that you find yourself between a rock and a hard place -- if you go back to the hospital to get stabilized on meds, it may affect your job, and thus your ability to do silly things like pay bills. On the other hand, if you go to work, and do the best you can, while trying to get set up on meds, you run the risk of extending the time it takes to get you stabilized AND you run the risk of having a negative impact on your perceived performance at work. Neither of those is an optimal outcome.
It's a hard decision to make, Maxie -- I think the measurement that might work best in this case is your health: what path offers the best chance of an optimal outcome for you, vis a vis your mental health? And that might be the hospital -- or it might be that working a few days a week helps more, because of the structure it offers and because it offers you a chance to feel capable and productive. I don't know what to suggest to you.
Other than suggesting that I'm glad you're my friend.
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