Posted by ExcellentCamper on January 11, 2008, at 12:40:18
In reply to Re: Beyond Emsam, posted by former trx resistant on January 10, 2008, at 22:24:15
Thank you all for your many generous and insightfully posts. I had a rough night last night and felt woefully depressed. (I have been functioning pretty well up to now for the last couple of years on Lamictal 150 mg ... great for rumination, obsession, and a baseline level of support but hasn't provided the mental clarity, motivation, brightness that I've been looking for for much of the last 15 years.)
Anyhow, last night for the first time in a long time, suicial ideation entered the picture; I started fantasizing about heaven as a relief from all my psychological struggling. I was also very irritable (a work deadline may have had something to do with it, but my level of anger and agitation was definitely greater than normal). I decided to rip off the patch and felt immediately better. (Know that was just in my head, but ...)
These are great tips on making the patches stick, but some part of using them makes me feel like a science project. I think I'd rather take a med and forget about it, even if it makes my liver work harder. My doctor called me back this morning and told me to start weaning off and go back to 9 mg. I see him Wednesday. He'd also like me to increase Lamictal to 175 to see if that helps. After 14 days off Emsam, I can also try the imipramine, which I'm very curious about. The other MAOIs are options, too, but I love my tofu and miso soup!
Hate to throw in the towel early on a drug I had high hopes for and researched, but how I felt last night scared me and seemed to warrant a retreat.
My best to all of you,
Will
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