Posted by AdamCanada on January 9, 2008, at 0:54:24
My basic question is at the very bottom...
Hello I am on Paxil 9.5mg. I also take ritalin several times a day to actually feel alive to some small degree. Also Clonazepam. Gabapentin I took for some months but stopped few days ago as i would get sweltering burning pains all of a sudden from it and seemed to worsen me and no longer help me on social side.
I have been doing okay in the past 4-5 months expecially the past 2 months where lowering my paxil dose from 10mg to 9.5 somehow gave me a huge surge in libido and motivation to meet women.
Anyway around new years I been spiralling downwards. Maybe it's because i steadily went down to 9mg of paxil, or maybe because i been taking a bad brand of Protien powder (stopped, i take other brand), or Creatine (10 days only then stopped around Jan 4th or so), ... so i dont know what caused me to get worsening of depression and anxiety and social anxiety.
Dep, anxiety, social anxiety, all been big problems for me but for the past 4 months things were anywhere from okay to pretty decent and I made friends and had a social life after 5 years of doing Almost NOTHING.
NOW I want to get that feeling back and i dont know what it is. Seasonal worsening of symptoms? Protein powder amino acids? Creatine? Paxil instability? Gabapentin building up in my system and doing something bad? I wish I knew.Or maybe bad brand of inexpensive protein powder? I'm not some rich guy and barely scrape by with my costs so I used to take... Interactive Nutrition Mammoth 2500. I would take up to 3 scoops a day with water to make shakes. It didn't seem to help much except for the gym but I wouldnt gain any weight as intended. maybe tiny bit. This other brand I been taking recently which i finished but plan to buy again tomorrow has helped me put on 5 pounds.... interesting.
Maybe the Mammoth brand is trash? It has aspartic acid whatever that is and... over a dozen others.
Could this be the cause? Please anyone with any advice or insight let me know. I been feeling so HELPless lately despite doing a tiny bit better recently and I feel like all my friends and the people whom I have met I cannot even talk to anymore due to my HIGH anxiety and anti-social and low mood.
Please any advice on any of the issues or possibilities that I brought up. Thank you for reading.
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