Posted by rvanson on November 12, 2007, at 8:31:07
In reply to Im so freaking depressed...i want to get away, posted by your#1fan on November 11, 2007, at 21:54:32
> Im so depressed tonight, earlier i was driving and i saw a cliff that was open..... you get the picture. But i didnt and dont plan on it. But i had the thought, for at least 5 seconds. Just end it.
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> I am going to stay on this earth until i plan on dying natrually. But listen, im so depressed tonight, i feel like i cant handle life, i cant handle collage, i cant hadle reality. I want to get away from reality. Right now im so, i just got through with studying.....listen even if i had a strong mood stablizer, i would like to have many emotions. Even though they take me other places, i dont want to just be "stable" the same, boring, but i would be depressed right now even if i was on any thing, abilify...geodon.
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> I just have caused scenes in public that have just humilated me... and i know not alot of people are going to respond to this. That how it is.... But im a person that where nice clothes, i try my best to look sharp, but im just not with it on social skills, people are polite, and leave. They dont know what to say. I think im a panzie and need an asswhopin'
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> i tell you i dont, i dont even have the energy to write this but i am im so dull, im so hurt, im so sick of the way i act, and the way people respond back, Manic phone calls i've made that i was making sense, i was just talking 1000miles and hour. People have blocked me. I just hate reality. I make it like this....
> Sometimes i dont even think im here, im seeing a dream or a movie or something. Thats how bad dealing with reality is.
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> And i havent but wont fall in the hands of alcohol, that would be worse. Oh jesus...
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> Why me? GOD! I HATE THIS LIFE!
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> i dont think there is any med, and i wish the "magic" poster would come and explain exactly what to do. Maybe god will post.
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> Im crying......hehe you know i just hate, and regret everything i've done because it was to compsesate for me not being the social norm.
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> Oh but think well of each poster here... i just am really about to fall to pieces.
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> Maybe I think im a panzie and need an asswhopin'
>I think you could use a therapist fast, and I dont say that lightly.
I dont really like psychotherapy, per se', but you need to get those issues out of your skull before its too late and you come to harm.
I have been where you are, I am almost certain that I am much older then you, so please seek some talk therapy to get you by this critical time, OK ?
Things will start to get better for you but you have to work for it and it will take time to heal up to the point where you can feel better then you do right now.
poster:rvanson
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