Posted by alienatari on October 19, 2007, at 22:15:01
I guess I am posting this because at the moment I seem to be obsessing over the past.
I remember when I went to hospital the psychiatrist that saw me took me off my antipsychotic and mood stabalizer and anti-depressant( I was originally on tofranil but he said i could kill myself on it so he put me on prozac I think) , put me on benzo's too..
The first week was ok, nothing much happened and I was not feeling too bad. I was bored one night and they had a board in the room which had a list of symptoms of depression. I changed "dry mouth" as a symptom to "dry anus" because I thought it was funny but I didnt expect the reaction that I got. They went through all the patients over the next few days asking who wrote it and I owned up. After that every day in group was basically everyone yelling at me for writing "dry anus" on the board. This went on for days. Then the psychologist thought it was a great idea for me to appologise to everyone in group personally about writing dry anus on the board (even though I appologised in group). The last person i appologised to said he was going to break my arms or something like that. I told the nurses that someone was threatening to cause physical harm against me and they said something stupid like "they have signed a piece of paper to say they wont be violent, they cannot be violent" lol. It was a private hospital and so you know it was not locked up, you can leave as you please (even though your not suppose to). and of course, they had no security. It was late and i was terrified from this guy so I barricaded the room so no one could get in and then the nurses went crazy at me and gave me some more benzo's to sleep. I walked out the next day never to return. One of the worst experiences of my life all because i wrote "dry anus" on a board I mean come on its not that bad!!!!!! I should not have written it buts not as if i killed someone!!!!!
That is when I had my psychotic episode or whatever it was, when I left the hospital and I ended up going back to my first psychiatrist for a few months and my records said I was manic when in hospital (really dont think i was) which led him to put me on a combo of lithium/valproate and zyprexa (plus an antidepressant and a benzo). Later tegretol was added (in my opinion this is insane.) I got fed up with this and was very sick from this combo of meds, so I went to my most current psychiatrist who took me off everything and put me on clomipramine/antipsychotic/valium and later lithium.
As you probably know if you have read my other posts he was/is convinced I am a meth addict and I had a methamphetamine psychosis (even though I have never had the drug).
My friends say public hospitals are a lot worse which I guess is true (when my ex girlfriend was in hospital, and yes I am gay but she was gay too so it kinda worked lol) the hospital she stayed in was really disgusting. When i visited her all you could smell was urine and pot, the smell was everywhere. Ive had other friends that have been in this hospital and they have told me that was the first time they ever used recreational drugs.
I forgot to mention that I was at a hospital called "Bankshouse" too at one point, which is a public hopsital In Bankstown (anyone in Sydney been there?) as a out patient and it was just as bad (if not worse) than maquarie clinic in Liverpool hospital (which is where my ex girlfriend was). But I could leave obviously as I was an outpatient.
Are psych hospitals this bad in America?
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