Posted by rskontos on September 17, 2007, at 16:50:51
I just wondered if there is anyone else that uses dissociation to control their anxiety like I do. I often lose my connection with reality. It is happening more and more. It doesn't happen in my home so I am thinking I don't really have partial seizures which they are trying to medicate for but it is part of of the dissociative disorder my therapist diagnosised me with. I have done this since childhood. The frequency of the loss of reality is happening more and more. They are freaky. My anxiety is high and I wonder if that is part of the problem. I can't seem to control it too much although yesterday seemed to be a good day. I haven't seen my therapist lately because during a high I thought I didnt' need her. I do have mood swings but the therapist didn't think I was bi-polar. I don't know anymore. I do dissociate alot and I think I could just drift off one day and stay disconnected from the world because it would be so easy. I fear so much. I tried talking to my husband and he says I handle things well. Better than him. I told him I hide it well and that is coping but I don't think I can hang on much longer. The depression comes in waves. But he can't understand because he never has had depression and he doesn't have these freaky blank outs. I had them so much as a teenager and now they are back just like then. I mean they never have left but they were infrequent. Now I am having them alot. But not at home. I have tried to induce them to see if I could so far no. Anyone else out there ever have one, I hope no for your sake but I feel freaky right now. I wonder if I got something to handle the anxiety med wise would they go away some. Anyone with any suggestions. I need something for the anxiety to take the edge off. Thanks in advance for any suggestions. RK
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