Posted by existentialist on August 28, 2007, at 1:35:00
In reply to Re: I'm on Xanax, posted by existentialist on August 28, 2007, at 1:18:22
Actually to elaborate a bit. With the ambien it was like instant comfort. I found it more mentally comforting than any other substance I've ever tried. I had assumed, because ambien was doled out to me like candy, that a real benzo which was not easy at all to get would be better.
I don't even have anxiety issues so much as feeling fear but just a state of discomfort and existensial anxiety (hence my nick) which is the worst at night for me. Been this way all my life, lying awake, a sense of forboding, insecurity, regrets over my life, powerless lying in bed I feel like a prisoner in my mind. I can't chill out and relax... ever. Pot or ambien is it for me. And a note on the drinking. When I used to drink socially in my college days I'd have to stay up hours after the night ended at 2AM because my mind speeds out of control worse than normal if I've been drinking.
I dread getting into bed each night.
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