Posted by rskontos on August 25, 2007, at 19:40:37
In reply to I'm Sorry, posted by Fivefires on August 25, 2007, at 18:38:12
FiveFires, I am new to this board but in the state you were in it is easily to think you like did that no one cares. I know because I am in that state often. It is easiest sometimes to lash out and try to get reassurance from those you feel the most comfortable with. I think most will forgive you as they too have felt this before. It is not easy I think to admit when you mess up and you did very admirably I must say. So forgive youself and remember most people on this board have been there and have done the same thing. We who suffer like this and the type of drugs we are on or have been on leave us feeling lonely and isolated. So while you may feel alone and IMHO it is part of the illness itself this feeling of isolation and loneliness you have to deal with most, remember it is a sympton and not a fact. All you must do is reach out. Things are not as they seem. Most of us dissappear when are in that bad place so while you were having a bad time maybe so of those you were trying to reach were having issues of their own or maybe they were having a good day and not online at that moment. So it was not as it seem to you while you were in that bad place. I have been in the bad place today. Yesterday was good and today not so good. I keep telling myself it will be better soon. I isolate myself from my family so I don't bring them down as they don't understand it. Today is easier to do that since my son is off with friends and my husband is gone working. It makes it for a lonely time but at least I am not hurting those that love me and can't understand. They try but they don't get it. Ity is always worth it to help something get through a bad time and that is why were are here. To support that we can't get elsewhere. I would have gone crazy without the first board I found when I first went on cymbalta and later when I was tapering off the friends I made on that board saved me. It has been shut down now and I don't know where most are just one or two but I am now here and you guys do understand and I hope to make friends here. I think following your heart is the best because it won't lead you wrong unless you are in that bad place and then all bets are off. I think you will be ok, we all need to stick together to try and get through this. At least for me I need friends so I stop living so much in my head. I understand feeling awful for so long. I too have lived that way. Some days I think I am emerging but then I have a bad day when all seems lost. I was actually having a good week. Until today. But being here has helped alot. Just to talk and vent to people that understand this illness. It helps me to think of it that way because then I don't have to think I am going to suddenly be well. Therapy and drugs are helping but aren't a cure all. Well, Fivefires I hope this newbie helped and if you need a friend or a shoulder just holler I will be around..rk
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