Posted by becksFLA on August 25, 2007, at 9:52:23
I'm freaking out here...I've got one month left before I go 1,000 miles to live in an area I've never been close to in my life, to go to a school for an insanely difficult program that will require me to basically wake up at all hours of the night for labs/lectures. I do not have a car, I live 1/2 mile from campus. I'm trying to get my meds figured out before then desperately.
I have been on 4mg Klonopin, which is fine. I am also on Lithium, which I went on to decrease my massive dose of Klonopin to hopefully even things out and decrease rebound anxiety as I weaned down the Klonopin. Since I leveled out the Klonopin, I have been tapering off the Lithium without telling anybody as sort of a placebo test to see if they notice a difference. I had too many bad side effects and wanted off the Lithium. I have felt much better off the Lithium, better mood, clearer head, more outgoing.However, we just left our peaceful up on a lake we have been going to for generations, my favorite place on earth, and leaving it I got so emotional thinking about what I was coming back to, very depressed. That has passed since yesterday but it still leaves me wondering like I always do was that just a random moment I'm thinking too much about, or the lithium? I had never tried lithium until about 8 months ago when I came down from my high dose of Klonopin. I'm now at 600mg about to go to 300.
My life is really in a bad state with many things non-medically related, so whenever I feel depressed I jump to the conclusion that it must be the lithium I've come off of, etc. I hate all that ambiguity.
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