Posted by steel on August 12, 2007, at 9:51:10
Sorry to call you out,but i ran across this post,and i dont think how accuratly i feel you dident just BANG the nail on the head,u SMASHED IT.
Here is your snip"
"Anyway, you continue to read my mind. I also have little indication that there are people as disabled or more so than I out there. My therapist has told me more than once how she's been practicing for 35 years and has never seen anyone even remotely like me. I don't probe too much about where I fall in the spectrum of severity relative to my psychiatrist's other patients, as I'm afraid of what the answer might be. I too often feel like I'm the only one, or the first human that's ever felt like this. I know it's preposterous, but this is a lonely disease when it gets this bad. Most other chronic serious diseases seem to have much more public support and recognition. I have yet to see someone with one of those colored ribbons on their cars for "treatment resistant depression". I think the general public thinks that people just go take medicines and get better (that's when they think about it at all).
My guess is severe treatment resistant people are falling into the shadows and the cracks when the options dwindle and drain away. I mean, I've made it as urgently obvious as possible to a number of doctors just how dire I feel my situation is, and nothing good or different ever came out of it. In fact, I sometimes got the feeling that they hoped I wouldn't make another appointment."
BOB let me say that with my mother i once saw a lady in a small waiting room,waiting on my last uck doc,the woman barly held her eyes open,swayed back to front,explained how she no longer could drive now,explained how she was in the process of the doc putting her to ect and explained how this doc has been her doc for almost a decade,also that she wanted to leave before but has come to feel "owned at this point" and afriad,which i can understand.Her list of current meds ran at least 10 meds long of every class.
I SAID SEE MA,YOU WANT ME TO SHUT UP,AND END UP LIKE THIS,THIS CAN BE THE RESULT IF U DONT PUT SOME TIME IN YOURSELF AND SPEAK.
Ok now point to all this,..because of my rebuttals i have been labled by some docs as the WORST,HARDEST ETC TO TREAT PATIENT.I know the feeling of having waited months to only drive home insulted and with nothing to reward that wait and offer relieaf,kinda like u waited a month to be yelled at,put down,and shoved out.
Luckly when you come across a food DOC who behaves with human kindness,who sees the fear and pain in your eyes and applies nothing but assuring attitude,do you begin to break a lil smirk on the drive home.
My friend knows what happened when my doc moved and i went through many,comming home so down and out.Honestly i believe you simply stumbled on a secret,some docs simply dont like to be off,dont like to hear im doing better,and ESPECIALY dont like to hear the opinion of possably why by a mere shmuck.
I know it aint easy but you need to find a doc who will,
- Allow you to have time here and there to speak your thoughts,and actualy listen to what you bring to the table,its not a one person role,you play a essential part.
-- Need a doc who wont get frustrated when you refuse a med,dont do well on it,etc.Lol i see a few now staring at there hand written mess of a chart staring HARD,as if the answer was on the paper somewhere that they happen to MISS last visit.
God i can go on and on,..WHY? because you are not a minority my friend,just easly made to appear so,as we all are.
poster:steel
thread:775709
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20070808/msgs/775709.html