Posted by girlnterrupted78 on August 1, 2007, at 16:36:37
In the last several days I realized that Nardil is definitely not working.
I already tried the higher dose--90mgs, and it gave me unbearable headaches, so that was simply not an option.
I tried 45mgs, and it wasn't enough. I remained on 60mgs.
The other day I went to apply for a new job and I realized just how anxious and uncomfortable I still am.
Then I made a mistake at work, and couldn't even face anyone to admit to it. The guilt overwhelmed me. The mistake wasn't even that important, but in my mind, I imagined everyone mocking me for it and being annoyed, so I went home and decided to let 1 or 2 days pass so that the anxiety and guilt would sink in and decrease a little bit and see if it healed/got easier in 2 days. It didn't, however..
When I finally had to face it, it wasn't even half as bad as I imagined. Nobody mocked me or seemed annoyed. It was all in my head.
Then the other day I was sure I'd get fired and got so incredibly anxious that I began to underperform. Then at the end of the day I realized the thought of 'firing me' probably didn't even cross my boss' mind. He immediately began criticizing the customer I had the problem with and said he noticed they were impossible from the moment they walked in. I had already began to think of how I'd get fired and how this would impact my depression..
So all these little things made me realize that I'm still very depressed, despite being on Nardil for almost 2 months.
I think I'm going to go up to 75mgs for a week, watch for any changes, and if nothing, start tapering off and switch to Parnate.
Any thoughts anybody? Does it really seem like I'm depressed?
Thanks
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