Posted by rjlockhart on July 29, 2007, at 13:38:28
I cant believe it, when i first was cold turkey i thought i was going to commit suicide. (dr-bob that was back then, not now)
I couldnt know reality from not from being on a stimulant. I litteraly year of hell. Finally i am back to my Happy Annoying ADHD self. Annoying people but who cares im back to myself 10 years ago when i was a kid.
I have trouble focusiing but i just make a laugh out of it.
I just found my Dextroamphetamine bottle that, was so painful to look. But then i though....look how much you have changed, off the stuff.
Being a person not on stimulants, normal. I tell you it was very triggering looking at it, because my mother hid it, the first thing OMG there it is! it was very hard, i had to drop it.
I hope this strattera will work. You know dextroamphetamine gives you a "lift" when it comes on, you concentrate and you can notice it. I just wished i never had a problems with amphetmaine-stimulants. I just noticed that if you take them you feel that "feeling" of uplift.
Im glad, im off, but in a way im sad it hit me i saw that prescription bottle because it was painful getting off. The pain came back after i saw it.
I mean i have grown some mentally, and not that this matters but tone, i just forgot my old life and getting a passport to a new life.
I need some support, maybe if i lay down and just say forget about it. It will go away.
Anyways, that it.
And rerember life is grand......
poster:rjlockhart
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