Posted by Last Chance on July 14, 2007, at 20:29:41
In reply to Re: feeling hopeless due to benzo taper » Phillipa, posted by shy_gal on July 14, 2007, at 1:24:28
Can't live with them, can't live without them - Benzo's. I'm 63 - addicted to Valium age 20-30 - came off cold turkey - that was so terrible and lasted so long I don't like to go there. Went 20 years without any benzos and lived a reclusive, anxiety ridden, unproductive life on Social Security. Presently on .75 Klonapin a day and .25 - .5 Xanax when I just need to feel a little better. Have been on a lot less but never could stop the K - the withdrawal at the end is just too much. I have tried the cross taper to Valium - couldn't handle that. Sometimes I think, take more and get out there and live, and other times I just want to be rid of any Benzo, a body clean of chemical influence. I don't think that is possible - pretty sure I will just be more unhappy than now. K makes me more depressed than just life. I have struggled with anxiety and social phobia so long, since birth, I'm sure. I am really ready to be totally addicted to a "Happy Pill" - I just don't know what that might be. I always thought that some day I would just lose the anxiety, social phobia that has limited my life - that by this age I could just say I don't give a flying F--k - it just doesn' go away. The thought of leaving the planet and never having been able to conquer this is a depression all it's own. Last Chance, (Richard)
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