Posted by rjlockhart on June 28, 2007, at 20:50:07
I am so unfocused and depressed, first reasons is medication. I dont know if im on the right meds.
I constantly forget things, im lethargic in thinking, i am so mad because of situtions where i get screwed in life.
I am miserable person at times, as a said before that people are on better medications than.
Most of the medication are i am are sedating Exept Prozac.
Xanax
Zyprexa
Temazepam (but thats only night)My doctor and mother seem to agree that i am not to go on a stimulant. If i make an appointment she will cancel it. I am treated like a 13 year old.
Anyways im not going to ramp on about poor me with out a psychostimulant. I'll just go full manic epidoes to get things done, which Prozac does make me manic at times in the day. Driving around, talking to random people, feeling a feeling self worthness, But when i am manic i do really crazy things but it feels good,
i mean i was manic about a work investigation i started about one person, and the whole management team was invesegated.
Having Bipoler and ADHD sucks. You cant feel focused then at the same time you have endless energy spirling everywhere in chaos.
Really i have had thoughts of just making it all end, but i know from bibical terms that you will have punishment from doing this. (going to hell)
So thats out.
I do hate i percieve reality.
but you know im really a peppy person but in side im not happy at all. If you would ever meet me you would disagree with everything im saying because i dont act like it. But just fake it intil you make it.
Life is grand..........but i hate the way i percieve it.
I am ready to argue with anyone or explain what medications that did help.
Adderall, Dexedrine, Dextrostat, i've been on them 10 years (at diffrent times)
I think when i become independent on my own i wont have these problems, but then also it could get worse...
Matt
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