Posted by mattye on June 18, 2007, at 18:06:20
In reply to Confessions of an English Opiate Eater, posted by Quintal on June 17, 2007, at 16:03:14
Quintal,
I know what you are going through.
I have a long-standing relationship with opioids. I was addicted to heroin for about a year until I was 19. I stayed clean for about 6 years, but my depression and anxiety relapsed and I began using agzin.Now I am a fairly habitual user of pain pills. I use about 30 - 60 mgs of oxycodone per week. I have a weird relationship with them.
On one hand, I recognize that I am an addict, but I have no problem controlling my drinking, nor do I have a problem with any other drugs. My mom is an opiate addict and her grandfather died of morphine addiction.
I haven't escalated my dose of oxycodone, but that is probably because I don't have access to more.
Opiates make me feel truly well. Nothing takes away my obessions and anxiety like opiates.
It makes me wonder why some people get prescribed addictive psychostimulants such as adderall for psychological problems, but mild opiates are out of the question.
> I am in opiate withdrawal yet again. Ran out of Nurofen Plus yesterday when Quintal snr. forgot to buy me a new packet in town. So I'm going to try and give it a go, see if I can get off them for a while and what it's like.
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> For a few months now the relief after each dose has been getting shorter and shorter until now it barely lasts an hour, and I'm clock-watching for the time when I can take another. I've been off them before several times but always went back again even though I felt well because I kept thinking I'd feel even better if I had an opiate on board. Actually they often made me feel worse at first but I kept on taking them anyway, such is the nature of addiction.
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> I'm craving cigarettes for some reason (dopamine?) even though it's been years since I smoked one. Going to crawl back under the duvet with my fan heater after this and sleep it off for a while.
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> Q
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