Posted by jenny80 on May 12, 2007, at 22:03:24
In reply to Re: Having ECT » jenny80, posted by Phillipa on May 12, 2007, at 21:32:34
Hi phillipa,
when i went to see this new doc i told him that i think about suicide everyday but had not acted upon it. He told me i was moderate.
I'm really not sure about ect now. looked it up on the internet and i see that many people have suffered from permanent memory loss. while i would not mind this if it worked i dont think i could handle a treatment failure as well as having memory loss and having to go back to work.
wish there was something else i could do.
I think i am going to cancel ECT for the time being. I suppose i am thinking about suicide just because i cant see any hope of my miserable life resolving but i am too concerned about my family to go through with it.
My family do know i was going for it. They are supportive in my decision. I think they are just sad to see me waste another 10 years of my life living under this black cloud.
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