Posted by rjlockhart on May 1, 2007, at 15:43:25
Ok first of all i want to apologize for any of my rampit behavior here on any of these posts.
But to get to the point, i have about near 7 friends that are close to me, and in the past i have had more but i scared, or pushed them away because i just dont have, well i act very socially "ediuquite" with people for periods of time then i let them know what personal stuff is going on, i need to just stop.
I think i just scared away a buddy of mine named Shelton.
I called him left a message, i cant keep stable relationships with people for long periods of time. Thats whats wrong.
I doubth he is going to call back, i dont expect him to, after what i left on the message about just home life. I spilled the beans about my frustrations with life.
I need to come here and vent them not to others because they will think im some unstable guy.
I still do have people, that are good christain friends that care and wont leave, but shelton i dont know, i thought he was my best buddy, now look what i have done.
Same thing here. Polerbear i am so sorry for doing that, i did that to one of my friends in the past, and it makes me miserable.
I AM 20 AND still have emotional problems that where not addressed when i was a teenager. You can even look back at what i have posted over the years.
I need to see someone that will listen. People in society dont care about other people's problems.
At least i have some people here that are my friends?
I thought i was making it and getting better than just one danm phone call spoiled it all! omg
I need this board's support, and i am sorry to phillipa, polerbear, intrepid, any of yall's advice was good and neccessary i have a bad habit of just thinking what "i" think is best, thats not true, i always get screwed.
Help, please anyone, like i feel i have scared off people like larry hoover, paul, spriggy, zenhuzzy, others on this board.
Phillipa thank you for at least awnsering my posts.
I am really having bad emotional and social issues i need to work on.
poster:rjlockhart
thread:754964
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