Posted by chiron on April 15, 2007, at 9:59:28
In reply to Re: So when did your depression and/or anxiety start? » football, posted by Phillipa on April 14, 2007, at 22:27:57
It's all I remember. It started around age 11, so I'm sure puberty had a role. They say that females that are sensitive to hormones become depressed at puberty, have PMS, and are worse on birth control pills - yip, that's me.
When I was in 6th grade I was so depressed they didn't know how to help me. I thought it was Satan and had times when I wondered if I was going through what Jesus did when he was suffering for our sins. (I am no longer religious) I think I started on Prozac around 13.
Today I am 34, so it's been 23 long years. I've been on and off different drugs. SSRIs did help some in the early years, but I think they now make me cycle up and down.
I've managed to work and go to school - but I've definitely not been able to accomplish what I've wanted (perfectionist tendencies). And I've been miserable the whole time.
A year ago I tried Adderall which made me feel great for a week, but then caused me to crash hard. Ended up in the hospital and decided to do ECT - which is the only thing that has ever really helped. It was so weird and wonderful- I actually felt like doing things. Unfortunately it didn't last.
So I've been trying the more hard-core stuff since, but everything makes me worse. Hoping the Emsam will be the exception.
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