Posted by rjlockhart on April 11, 2007, at 1:47:42
please read the bottem too....
I am so dysphoric, i swear if i had any stimulant right now i would take it.
I am so freaking zoned, feel just ugh i dont want to deal with reality.
Im living in madness in my own head.
there is feeling, like im going no where, i have such a pessimistic additude, i feel i dont danm know what to say or i feel i always need a f^cking pill to do something.
Sorry for the langueage.........im just so irrtible, i dont know how to tell people what i feel. I Cant express what i feel im so zoned, i swear if i had a electric ECT i would shock the hell out of my brain.
Im so sorry im being like this.
Why is life this way? why am i this way? why is my brain chemistry or maybe its not, its just me, my personality cant change, well it has, but
Im putting my hands on my head, im so frustrated with this,
UGHHHH GOD i hate feeling like this.
Qualuues, ECT, anything to make me see life not like im seeing it!
Its like through a freaking movie.
IM DRIVING MYSELF INSANE!
poster:rjlockhart
thread:748949
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