Posted by jealibeanz on March 18, 2007, at 17:20:09
In reply to Re: I'm considering alcohol to replace medications » jealibeanz, posted by Quintal on March 18, 2007, at 15:42:39
Thanks for that tip. I have no problem handing my doc back the bottle, but I think the issues go a bit further. I clearly stated that the drug was ineffective, in detail. I have no reason to abuse a drug that's not working. He knows me well enough to trust me.
I hope he asks me to come in. I think I need to have a little heart to heart. Not me sitting on the exam table while he asks me what refills I need, and I make comments if I feel something isn't working well, he quickly thinks of a different substitute.
My question now is what he will want to do when I tell him I don't want to take the XR anymore.
I'm willing to go in and have a serious conversation with him. Explaining that I understand this tx is not the norm and looked down upon for long time use. Right now it's the only thing helping me and the only thing that's ever helped.
I am disappointed with myself for taking any med, I want to be strong. I've always had GAD, but has worsening, along with minor panic, which is when this commonly starts at my age. I was OK taking AD's, since the docs are very willing to give them, and the general pulibc is pretty accepting.
I'm very well aware of the fact, due to my classes, that the general medical community feels like these drugs are absolutely horrible and shouldn't be used, other than a 1-2 week transition to an SSRI. This makes me feel even worse.
I want to tell him that I'm nearly at the point where I want to D/C all meds, because I haven't found a good balance, and am tired of all this.
I mean no discredit or disrespect to him or this PA who has treated me. They've been very kind and understanding and helpful and supportive. This isn't to say that none of the meds I've been given have been worthless. At times, I felt like they were definitely improving my life and got me though hard times.
I at one time thought I'd be able to D/C Xanax after a while, but this just isn't the right time for me. I'll apologize for putting him in a situation that may make him uncomfortble, and will not ask for a new script. He can make the decision.
I'll ask about possible future drugs, so I appear to be looking for a life without Xanax.
I'll tell him I've tried CBT several times, with no benefit. I never found it useful, it was just talking about dumb things. No help, just annoying and condescending. I personally have never been comfortable with mental health professionals. They treat me like less of a person. I went to a psychiatrist who was terrible with me and have me no medications or advice. Other GP's were also judgemental.
I like seeing him and his PA because they treat me with respect, like a real person, not a psycho. If I'm not comfortable with my provider, I will not be successful.
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