Posted by Phillipa on March 9, 2007, at 21:51:58
In no way is this meant to be argumentive or suggestive, or anything else contraversial. It's just something I would like to discuss as I seriously am confused about it. Please forgive me if I appear to insult anyone about anything seriously I have raging hormones for the first time in my life this thyroid thing is ridiculous. Now for the meat I will try and explain. When I was in my teens and twenties I was indestructable and life would be forever problem free. Live in a house with a white picket fence flowers planted all around a husband and smiling kids no illness life would be grand. Now for the years until my late 40's I felt this way and thought I would never get ill, I would always have plenty of energy, no wrinkles or ailments that a pill lie an antibiotic couldn't fix. So I could have been a bit reckless if not married with kids. I was almost a flower child so happy I wasn't as I would probably be dead today from all the illegal meds. peace marches etc. Who ever thought I would age and my body let me down. Well too fast you do get old and your options are not what they were. You start physically to get illnesses and things that in your youth you never dreamed you'd have as you'd be young and well forever. Well guess what I am getting older, I can no longer run, or have the energy I did. Have to take meds for organs that have failed like the thyroid or have gotten ill with things like chronic lymes disease. I've worked in hospitals younger and looked at people my age with tragic illness who would give anything just to be able to walk or sit up. Their quality of life isn't what they expected it to be. My example I'll use is my Son. He did his share of illegal meds, and then became blind in Desert Storm with a family to take care of and support. Depression hit him for a few years. He first hid it in sleep and alchohol then he went to ECU was summa cum laude in Social Work began to pick-up the pieces of his life and look forward to life again was on an antidepressant and realized it couldn't change his life only he could. So he got off the meds and now only has some ativan for extreme anxiety. So my message is enjoy your life it could change walking across the street forever and you might need meds forever just to survive. I think we set our expectations of how we should feel too high. As if you achieve the expectations what will you do if puff it goes away with illness. This board is on mental illness it can strike also any time. So take what you have and enjoy it. As someday you will get old . You can't fight that. You may to need to go on meds you dont want to. I have and I am doing what my pdoc says to do and you know I have failed at times to follow through but now I am. So I have reseached doctors in the area. I would publicly thank a certain person but can't hopefully they will know who they are for helping in my search. All I ask out of life at this point is a little bit of happiness before I can no longer walk. Love Phillipa please all be careful with your meds and let your docs know of any strange things happen and follow his advise. We're only mortals here. Some more knowledgeable than others and maybe some docs under screennames that would like to remain ananymous. I love you all.
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