Posted by NYCguy on February 15, 2007, at 12:18:54
Hi everyone in Babble-land! I just this week restarted treating my ADD innatentive with Dexedrine after a long and (worthless) year hiatus. So far, things are great. I can focus, shower, shave, work, write, clean up, do the dishes, read a book, drive the speed limit, etc...
I guess the point of this post is to ask anyone if they've ever had a tough time accepting an diagnosis that reqires an permanent med solution. I know it's silly, but the idea that I'll have to take stimulants for my ADD for my whole life was hard to accept. My family kept asking me... "when can you stop taking the Adderall?" last time I was being treated for ADD. So, for a long time, I saw it as a real flaw in my being that I needed this stuff to function well. I can only imagine that someone dealing with BiPolar would find it even harder to accept due to the fact that they would be saying "Adios!" to those manias forever in order to live a more stable life.
It was hard for me to just accept what my doctor has been telling me all along... and that is that I have ADD/anxiety/depression and that the best way to treat these is a stim/benzo/low dose SSRI combo. This last year I tried Emsam, Parnate, some TCA's, I tapered all the way off my Klonopin.. (guess what, the anxiety was still there... doh!) I wasted a whole year because I was too proud to just accept who I am and take the meds I need to function and be happier.
Has this psycological step been hard for anyone else here? Can anyone relate to an intense desire to "beat this thing without the meds"?
poster:NYCguy
thread:733040
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