Posted by deniseuk190466 on February 8, 2007, at 13:44:19
In reply to Re: ECT, posted by lcat10 on February 7, 2007, at 22:13:00
Hi,
Sounds like me, my depression is worst in the morning. The first two years back in 2001 and 2002 I used to lie in bed in the morning wishing there was a guillotine over my head which would just come down and chop my head off. I had a good job then and what actually kept me afloat during all of the drug trials was 10mg of Zyprexa around every 7 to 10 days. Have you ever tried 10mg of Zyprexa just now and again to keep you going?
I've been feeling awful since coming off Seroxat (around October) last year and again it's the Zyprexa which is keeping me going. I'm scared really about how my mood is when I don't take it. I don't cry a lot but I just feel really agitated, empty and deader than dead. Too empty to cry even and everything seems hopeless. The fact that my current (NHS) psychiatrist isn't even attempting to try something new on me or try anything on me is making things worse because it feels as though he has just given up on me. I need to feel as though I'm being treated, I need somebody to just say to me "we'll get you better".
Do you have bipolar or just (although it's not a just) unipolar depression?
I've told my psychiatrist (NHS) I'm suicidal but he has just referred me to see someone else, who won't be able to see me or even treat me with anything until March 20th (which seems like ages away)I have been thinking about just admitting myself as an inpatient (just to get some sort of treatment or to try something) but then I worry that this will be seen as copping out, taking an easy option.
Anyway, keep us updated on how the ECT goes for you, if it works I'll be pleased for you but very envious too.
Denise
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