Posted by ralphrost on February 7, 2007, at 7:38:55
In reply to Re: SSRI to Tianeptine - side fx (easy now ;) » ralphrost, posted by Declan on February 6, 2007, at 20:37:48
Hello Declan,
thank you for your post. It's good to know you seem satisfied with your treatment, despite looks like you had a very difficult past.
I also used to feel "amused and agonised", very much like you said. Some days I'd feel really funny and "alive", interacting with people in an amazing way. The day after I could be deeply sad and suicide. I didn't really notice I had such mood problems, I was just living.
I think my good days used to balance the bad ones. I started noticing something was wrong after I'd feel bad 6 days in a week.
Through the last year something weird happened. From January to October I stopped having some good days, and never felt the same. It's scary, but it coincided with my Accutane use (would it interact with mood, as suspected?). Might be only a coincidence, and I really hope it is.
As you said, I prefer to feel worse than being devoid of emotions. Having emotions and humor sense makes me always socialize. It's crucial for me. It would mean remission. It's interesting I found an article with a similar point of view, though GHB is out of question:
http://www.biopsychiatry.com/ghb/authentic.html
I think it doens't matter how bad is your life, if you are able to laugh at it and are around people.
I'm still trying Tianeptine, now 2 tablets a day. I started this month, so think it needs more time. By now, I feel a strong drowsiness in the morning. Let's hope for the best.
Best wishes for your life,
Ralph
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