Posted by lilvipr23 on January 22, 2007, at 18:44:02
Ok, kinda new at this so.....bear with me. I have been batteling anxiety since I believe I was 5! Always a nervous kid, always anxious, and hyperactive. Since I have gotten older I started to notice my anxiety was getting to the poing I was having "attacks". Since I am not a big pill pusher, I decided to just grin and bear it. Well, I got to a point where everyday I was living a panic attack, living in fear of dying or becoming deathly ill from some sort of disease etc. I finally decided to take medication. First, we tried Lexapro.....BAD IDEA!! Then we tried Zoloft....eh, worked for a while then started getting attacks again sop they simply uped my dose. Well that didn't do much justice and by this time I was sick of being a lab rat, I was fed up, and just decided I had to live like this and get used to it.....after all this was ME! After yet another breakdown I decided I "needed" the meds to stay sane (for all I knew I was going INSANE) So now I moved to citalopram (celexa. Finally something that worked, or so I thought! I also decided to go talk to someone while on the medicine(although it took me 5 therapists to finally find one I like) I have been feeling so good since I have been seeing him, yet my medicine started making me feel worse...nervopus belly, headaches, and anxiety all over again. I decided enough is enough and I stopped my meds cold turkey! And this is where I am at.....questions un answered, feeling withdrawal symptoms, scared to death I am dying of some stomach thing (And yes I have my annual physicals, and yes they tell me evrything is fine but yet I stil think something is wrong) I am tired of feeling alone, and feeling like a lab rat! Some days I have great days and others I scare myself thinking that I am going to feel like this forever......what do I do? Does anyone else feel the same? Thanks for letting me vent, sorry it took so long.......
poster:lilvipr23
thread:725356
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