Posted by falconman on January 17, 2007, at 10:38:01
I can't emotionally respond to anything, get excited, look forward to anything, get sexually excited, get reward from achieving something ect... It's weird, but I feel like I'm floating through life without really feeling atatched to anything. I suffer from chronic boredom really. Don't evan know if I could call myself depressed.
The only emotion I feel is anxiety, usually when put on the spot socially. Infact as a child I suffered from social phobia-probably still do.I've been on loads of meds and various combinations over the last 10 years. I've started having the gut feeling that alot of this mess I'm in, has been caused by psychiatric meds. I found previous posts on this very interesting, especially with regards lack of pleasure from music. Music used to be my life, and my non-response to music now is evidence that something is seriously messed up.
I'm thinking of coming off my AD's (Citalopram 40mg,Remeron 30mg,Cymbalta 60mg), staying on Klonopin 2mgs and seeing how things go (not sure if I can manage this but I'll have a go). After giving my brain some time to recover from the last 10 years of abuse, and If I still feel crap, I might try some of the following drugs.....Tianeptine, oral selegiline(EMSAM not available in UK), low dose amisulpride, provigil.
If none of these bring back any joy I may resort to going back on Nardil. Was on it for about 6 months about 3 years ago. My blood pressure was all over the place, felt so tired and I put on a load of weight. But looking back I think I felt a bit more like me again. Thats my main problem I think, a lack of sense of self(if that makes sense to people). My doc stopped it cause I wasn't keeping to the diet evan though I didn't need to.Sorry for the long-winded rant, but if anyone is still reading what I want to know is.........
what kind of depression/disorder do you think I've got? I've been diagnosed with so many different titles over the years, I feel I might as well get another diagnosis from people you can actually relate. Are there any meds that jump out to you as good ones to try for someone in my situation? You never know I might not have tried them?
Big thanks to anyone who responds to this.
Peace Falcon
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