Posted by liliths on January 14, 2007, at 12:22:46
In reply to Re: Had pdoc appt and got go ahead on stims/Liliths, posted by stargazer on January 13, 2007, at 12:15:19
hi stargazer,
YAY! I am so excited for you!! Please keep me posted on how you're doing.
Sorry it took me a bit of time to reply. I have my 'hearing' in a couple of days... all these months of torment will be sorted out - either routed into another torment, a successful outcome (the most unlikely), or something else entirely.. but at least THIS torment of interminable waiting will be over!
I'll be out of town for a few days (leave tuesday morning) but hope to have internet access... I won't know until I check into my room. I'm on a Mac and I've discovered not all hotel networks are compatible.
Now since I'm already on ADD meds, I hope to be able go the other route... start on a small dose EMSAM and pray it helps. I'm already beginning the process of weaning down the wellbutrin & buspar I know I need to be off of before I can start EMSAM.. and of course, I also need to find a pdoc willing to give it a try. I have to find a new pdoc as a result of my current nightmare anyway.
I really connected with what you said about the whole overcompensation thing. It IS exhausting having to deal with the world while trying to hold on and make sense of the nonsensical... whether it's ADD, depression, anxiety, whatever...
Having unaddressed ADD wreaks havoc on everything else. I know it made a big difference for me but when the depression returned, it wreaked havoc on the ADD as well.
Someone posted a link to an article on treatment resistant depression recently and the main thing I got from it was the emphasis on 'complete' remission of symptoms.... psychic, somatic etc. It talked about how incomplete most people's relief was and that only 'partial' recovery in some ways made things worse.. it reminded me of exactly what we were saying.
And truthfully, one also has to be willing to make lifestyle & habitual changes to what we've grown so accustomed to... though it does takes 'feeling better' to be willing to do the damn work!
Like you, I really don't want to have any dietary restrictions.. plus I know I'd have to be on a much reduced ADD dose so it's all up in the air for me still.. wish me luck - I need it LOL
and good luck to you! I hope it is a resounding success!
namaste,
lilith> Litiths...I'm on Emsam 6 mg which I told my pdoc I really wanted to remain at since there are no dietary restrictions...Since i have been on Mao's before, I have always loosely follow a MAO diet since I don't really like most of the foods that are restricted, with the exception of cheese, and with the 6 mg Emsam it shouldn't be a problem.
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> I don't like red wine, pickled herring, ripe bananas or even unripe bananas. These foods have never appealed to me and red wine gives me migraines, so I never drink it even when I didn't take MAO's.
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> Pdoc didn't really prescribe a stimulant since I told him I had lots of amphetamine 10 mg tablets which was filled and never used back when I was taking Adderall. So we decided I could continue to "experiment" with the dosage which he said I could go much higher on! I may go from 2.5 to 5 mg 2X/day (separated by 4-6 hours for the short acting amphet)but believe me I will be taking my BP often. I do not want any surprises with this combination!
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> I think over time I may opt for a longer acting stim (Adderall-XR) since I have too many problems remembering to take my meds and the ups and downs may be too much once my life starts getting back to "normal".
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> I think the overcompensation says something about hard you have to work to maintain some "normalcy" in your life despite internal "chaos". I realize now why I was always so exhausted after work and never wanted to socialize, even though I wasn't actively depressed. Even when my depression was stable, the ADD part of it kept me struggling to stay in control of my life and this was always very difficult.
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> Hopefully, I will start to see real changes in the way I handle the day to day problems and stress of living. I hope I'm not expecting too much but I am hopeful this time and haven't been for a very long time, so I'm due.
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> SG
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