Posted by stargazer on December 14, 2006, at 0:05:46
In reply to Even People On Ad's Don't Believe They Don't Work, posted by Phillipa on December 13, 2006, at 22:17:20
I don't get it either when someone has a response to the first AD they try and they only have been depressed that one time. It doesn't seem fair. It seems like they really don't have depression, like you and I have. We have something else entirely, I guess that's why it's called TRD. I blame my mother's side of the family for the defective genetic link. Lots of pessismism and negativity.
But you know, the first time I was treated for depression, I was in my late 20's, had depression since my teens, ignored it, thinking I was just a bad person, etc., it would go away for awhile but always came back ( I have dysthymia) but I was functional, able to work, etc. Very little joy though, even when good things were happening.
I took Elavil first, nothing except huge pupils and a mouth like the Sahara. Felt like death. Second med tried, Nardil...could remember feeling something very early and then that was it...I felt normal for a couple of years and thought the depression is gone, I'm normal and I can get on with life. Too soon to celebrate, it stopped working about two years later.
Since then, it's been nothing but med trials with some periods of relief, but also many episodes of relapses, so who knows...
Back then I was never told that once you have depression, with each recurrence it can get worse, so even those that get a good response initially may have more surprises down the road. So lucky as they seem, they may face what we are facing, except we started alot sooner than they did.
It sucks all the way around. Hope you are doing OK.
SG
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