Posted by mixed_state on December 12, 2006, at 2:28:05
In reply to Dear pseudo, posted by AuntieMel on December 11, 2006, at 16:59:17
I have been following this board for around a year and this information and subsequent discussion has finally convinced me to post. I had read pseudoname's posts before and obviously it is a very tragic situation. For the first few days after I read the post, I felt very sad - particularly exacerbated by the loss of another babbler just a few days before. The information of pseudoname's suicide definitely 'triggered' feelings from my own dark abyss to rise to the surface. I never met him/her but I felt myself imagining an individual taking their own life (representative of myself?). It has been a very awkward set of days. Feeling the way I felt, I definitely understood squiggles' postings, and even thought similar thoughts, although I didn't dare to post them. But in retrospect, I do think Squiggles was displacing his/her feelings over the loss, to the messenger of the information - Dr. Bob - an inclination I myself had. The knowledge of a loss of a real person in this imaginary community that involves real feelings and real words, and sometimes personal bonds (e.g., Toronto) makes it all the more dificult to place in the limited schema of human conceptualization. Somehow, through displacing my own feelings of mortality and the loss of this real person into the linguistic realm of my own therapy, I have been able to work through it to be able to move on and know that I must keep struggling.
poster:mixed_state
thread:710231
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20061206/msgs/712832.html