Posted by stargazer on December 1, 2006, at 9:55:59
In reply to Re: May Be A Stupid Question Definition Yours of D, posted by valene on December 1, 2006, at 8:22:24
Great question Phillipa...I ask my self this alot.
Today, do I feel depressed? Not really but as you know, I'm getting some improvement on Emsam. YEAH!
The way I look at it is this. I have had depression for most of my whole life. I lived OK with it until I was in my teens and wanted to die. When I told my mother she said "I feel like that alot" and today does acknowledge depression. Her family has the genetic link.
I remember feeling so sad and different than others...very quiet, had nothing to contribute, all my thoughts and feelings were trapped inside my brain...went to college, on and off feeling like this...basically I was able to live a "normal" life but really had alot of emptiness inside, externally looked great, so that helped to fool others. Lived a life of pretending everything was OK. Did go to student health for "it" but back then no one acknowledged depression.
Depression is a continuum.
On my worst days, I cannot get out of bed, see no reason for living, see nothing in my past that has been positive, feel I have no reason to be alive and do not see why I am or why anyone else would want to be. The meaning of life has no meaning. That's depressed.Also, absolutely no idea what I am supposed to do on a given day. I would ask my husband "What am I supposed to do next?"
The on and off symptoms that I function with vary and I work at fine tuning my meds when the symptoms become problematic. Alot of times that becomes background since usually life keeps you too busy from focusing on the minor symptoms, which everyone has, not just people with depression.
SG
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