Posted by shplongl on November 16, 2006, at 0:59:20
First I will state that I am diagnosed with OCD, Major Depressive Dissorder and a "Mood Disorder".
I have been through several different medications through out the past year or so. I will list them for reference.
Before doing so I must address that I am an alcoholic and have not been living at home. For the past 5-6 months I have consumed anywhere from 6 to 12 (there are outliers) beers a night. I have quite the liver of an Irishman. In the past month this has declined significantly and as of the past ~1 weeks(I can't remember[noted later])has been none, except for the exception I will note later
-Started Zoloft (for OCD mainly) roughly a year ago(had been of anything for roughly a year)
-Zoloft was augmented with abilify
-Went back to Zoloft and was given Thorazine by my idiot psych basically in place of a benzo
-Switched docs, stayed on zoloft for a time
-Started Anafranil(clomipramine)/w Zoloft
-Stopped Anafranil
-Started a switch from Zoloft to Luvox at my request(I had previously been on from 4th-9th gradeNow here is what has happened recently.
I was taking 50mg of Zoloft along with 50mg of Luvox at night and 50mg of Luvox in the morning(100mg total).This was going relatively well. At this point I must state my memory is very impaired. I got myself into a car reck (broken jaw, concussion). I was on heavy IV doses of lorazepam and morphine. Once released I had a quantity of lortab solution. I went through this in a period of two days due mainly to the pain and the fact I kept spilling it. To cope for a day or two I drank small amounts of vodka (I was trying to cut down before this) as I could not drink beer for the pain.
I believe the day after my doc prescribed me librium to quit drinking and upped my luvox to 200mg a day split eliminating the Zoloft and also renewing my lortabs. After this at some possibly starting that night point I got into two altercations with my girlfriends father who has dementia due to drinking(A good reason to stop).I get the altercations mixed up but I know one of them (I think the first) ended in physical violence.(Her father is obsessed with his "manliness" and is very mentally abusive, though his anger is taken out on stationary objects.) He was going on a drunken rant and my anger and resentment took the best of be and a fist fight broke out ending with his ego hurt(I am normally a complete pacifist)[BIG revelation, I think THIS is why I got in the car wreck, I was going back to my house.]The second ensued with myself getting into an altercation with the police who had been called unknowingly prior to my admitance to the emergency room for a severe flair up in pain(the call was made by the father).
I had only had a small ammount to drink ~1-2 shots but was in a delirium and having a severe panic attack which was caused by being tackled by 5 police officers. (I do not remember why they assaulted me possibly the mania/delirium mingled with myself probably trying to explain the situation, who knows, maybe the father just told them I was insane) Some how I managed to free myself and tried to crawl a few feet away just to distance myself when I was tazed. I was subdued, restrained, sent to the hospital where I left in a room room (still restrained) and literally harassed by the personnel. I honestly believe they thought I was insane.
I was left restrained in this room for several hours with just an IV. After my patience(and pain tolerance) wore thin (remember I had not even two days ago broken my jaw)I completely lost it. I ripped out my IV which angered the nurses who said something about me going somewhere with which I replied something along the lines of I going care less if where the f*ck they took me as long as it wasn't here.
I was actually taken to another facility where I could sit in a room and talk with a sort of doctor (possibly psychologist) like civilized human beings. [Another revelation] I think this is where I got the lortabs, not my regular psych. Anyways, since that point I have been living at home. My parents administered me one 7.5 lortab every 5-6 which did little for the pain considering my tolerance but it did help a little.
This is where the major depression started to my knowledge. Three or four days later my lip was operated on. I was prescribed 5mg percosets which combined with the lortabs made me feel about normal. (Though when the lortabs ran out it took my father a day or two to decide to give me two percosets every ~5 hours. When they ran low I took only one instead and since then advil was sufficient.
I ran out maybe 5-7 days ago. Have not consumed any alcohol since I have been home ~1.5 maybe two weeks and I am severely depressed. My assumption is withdrawal/new med. Two days ago I took 50mg of Zoloft along with 50mg of Luvox in the morning and 50mg of luvox at night and felt significantly better till about 10pm that night. Today(Yesterday) I did the same and slept from 1130pm till 430pm. I did not feel much better.
Since all of this has happened I have felt more distant from the only person I feel close to (my girlfriend of 1 year), have been slightly irritable and very reclusive. I only go out side to smoke (guess I omitted that). I have noticed moderate to severe shock sensations at time like when coming off an SSRI and oddly noticed them increase significantly for a few minutes after the last cigarette I smoked. Since the wreck I have had a bit a trouble with balance, but that may just be from being bed ridden for some time but most distressingly I have noticed a loss of dexterity in my guitar playing, something that has never happened to this degree even if i did not play for a time.
Currently I would like to switch back to 100mg of Zoloft daily(which my doc will most likely be pleased with, aside from all the chance)and also might get on a benzo regimen. I am convinced I have somewhat irregular activity at the GABA receptor.
I apologize for error or my memory and it is to jumbled I will re-edit. Now that I said I am going on a benzo regimen please do not focus on convincing me otherwise. My main problems are Major depression and pretty bad OCD (makes my mind extremely overactive at times). And just to note, I am not Bi-Polar.
poster:shplongl
thread:704154
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